this is my first blog and i thought id use it for something real important the death of my stepmother. such a wonderful woman who recently lost her battle with cancer after 8-10 years. ill always have fantastic memories of her i was closer to her than my mother. she was a true angel on earth through every thing she went through she hardely ever complained and was always bright and cheerful. although i will miss this wonderful friend i have lost i know she is pain free and is calmly waiting to join heaven once we burry her. my step mother had an interesting way of looking at life and leaving us behind is no different she wishes to be burried in her lovely wedding dress with the rest of us wearing bright colours to celebrate her life. most of us shall be in red and yellow her favourite colours. its funny what people think. my friend told me its not so bad at least my mothers still alive and as much as thats true it doesnt help. i loved my step mum and for 16 years she was there for me and had great influence on my life. which means ill probably go through some thing simular when my mum goes.its no wonder she doesnt understand the bond we had.